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dearest P,

i watched hamilton last night. i think i understand now why you love it so much. you see yourself so much in him. who knows, maybe one day you'll be the one who'll make this third-world country into a somewhat easier place for everyone to live in.

the songs are catchy as well. of course, i have my own biases because i like rap but this is not a review anyway so why am i defending why i like it i don't really know. did you also rapped while watching it? of course you would because i don't know anyone who loves that musical more than you do. i've seen you rapped your heart out to salbakutah's stupid love, and i just can't imagine how passionate you are in rapping the lines from hamilton.

anyways, that's just all i wanted to say today.

i really hope you are smiling now,
N

p.s. should I spell out my name? i wish it was a-l-e-x-a-n-d-e-r, so i can say whatever the next lines in the lyrics are.

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